Well you shall read this probably when I am still alive or old as hell.
Baby boy I know the cliche line about the first time I held you should sound like a scene from a movie but it was nothing like that.I could barely see you because I was hypothermic and really fucked up to even get a clear glimpse of you.It felt exactly like a train passed over me and left me for dead.I could barely walk lol.After the doctors attended to you and brought you to me I stared at you and thought are you going to be crazy risky or super nerdy.You were so light almost pink lol hell I felt kinda powerful knowing I could push a racoon size baby as handsome as you.
First all i did not understand why you hated being swaddled with the lights on😂😂 or why you chose not sleep before it clocked 2 am.You still amaze me till date how you can operate a laptop, change channels,operate an iPad,a phone on your own and you are barely three years but I am not too surprised because we have visual memory (trust me it comes in handy😌)
You are smart (trust me I am not pulling your pants or pulling the usual mummy vibe if you were dumb I would tell you😂😂😂 syke), a very calculative persona,positively aggressive ,curious and outstanding.Sometimes I run home just to see you meet me at the door and go like “Hi” so many times or have pointless conversations with mention of meaningless words or watching cartoons with you or better yet doing chores with you (you are my chores partner in life).This reminds me even when most people care less about me you care about me way more and I have someone to breath for.I hope our relationship lasts this way.
Your mother is a crazy person ,overprotective and pretty paranoid but it is because you are my greatest creation.God gave me a sense of meaning and direction when he gave me you.I felt withdrawn from the world with its kill switches but you dug me out a hole.Truth is sometimes you get on my last nerve though and it is really frustrating when you refuse to sleep and we watch your animations on replay when I have to rise and hustle.You make serious situations seem stupid through your facial expressions even without you saying a word.That is how I know you hold my heart and my character in a way.☺
Before you were born I was the life of the party.I could do it non stop.I feel ninety now figuring when it starts getting to two am i am almost passed out not because of the alcohol in most cases (the wave of sleep though😂😂😂).That shit grew old when I got to know I was carrying you.7 months in you were 1 kg.2 months away from delivery your chances of survival were slim but you made it through like a true fighter you are.That is why i fight to do better and to be better and to hustle more than ever.I got crazy suggestions from so called people meant to be my “friends” to get rid of you and they even showed me places to get it done.I mean who pays ksh 6500 to get rid of a priceless gift.That is such an insult.Abortion is an action that haunts you for ever.You will relive it over and over because it is murder.The irony is you will have a baby eventually so abortion is not the most pleasant knowijg what the side effects could be.That is how i lost friends and made friends.Your aunties are nuts but sweet.They adore you and crush on you too much.Remember that you can always call on them for you hold their heart.Your uncles are overprotective but stupid fun.They refuse to grow old lol. Your daddy was my food delivery guy and my Google partner😂😂 (I appreciate him though☺) . Your appepite and cravings were on another level:Raw mangoes,fried meat or choma,crisps and kitkat was the diet.Every time I got home and sat down you would start playing, kicking and moving around in my tummy.The coolest part was when I saw your foot step on the side of my tummy.It was mind bottling.
Italians abducted my baby lol
You are super naughty though but I get it you are as curious as mummy and weird like daddy (some traits did not come from me)😂😂.I love you so much jamari so much that I do not want you to grow up and go into this cruel world.You shall face hurdles,fights and tough situations that I will probably not be able to help you with but I want you to always remember you ain’t leaving the true meaning of life if its not bumpy. You will meet liars,hypocritical characters ,pretenders,cheaters,fake people but do not forget what does not kill you will makes you stronger. You will learn who to trust and whom to hold dear. They may not be many but count your blessings.
You have so much to explore and achieve but please be sweet to me when you are a teenager.I will be using my old school mummy vibe to instill some pointers that will help you along the way.I will not be the bad mum just the concerned paranoid mum you feel me?😂😂 I am not perfect but I try to give you the best version to emulate.
Moreso what I cannot wait to see is the girls you shall date or not date no?😂😂.Please impress me😂😂(no pressure) .Well you shall get heartbroken but since you are in the male clan it will probably go easier on you.All I ask as lame as it may sound to people is to be respectful not only by actions but by words too,considerate of your actions and treat your lady well as you treat me or your aunty or any female figure in your life.You will not be the woose but the grown and mature man. A thing most people lack nowadays or do not know how it goes. I cannot wait to meet my grandchildren and see my generation grow then I will have known I have lived a great legacy.I can be controlling but I want you to know that not books that necessarily drives your career but education is part of the key.Focus on what you love to do because your talent may push you further in life even when I insist that you should read more, know more and get good grades.Do not forget to nurture your talents. I will definitely support you and help you through it as much as I can if you can balance both. (Divide and conquer).
Remember nothing comes easy my love and no one gets it easy.If it’s too easy ask yourself why.Hard work and determination and selflessness takes you a mile further each time.Most importantly pray,repent even when you do not deserve to be forgiven and ask for guidance because our maker is more powerful than any human creature.
Be wise my son for knowledge is facts but wisdom is the key to life achievements.